For He satisfies the longing soul, and fills the hungry soul with goodness. -Psalm 107:9
This verse has really stuck with me for the past couple of weeks as I have been thinking about longing. That deep-in-our-heart desire that seems as if it will never be fulfilled. Why is it that there always seems to be something missing?
I believe it is because God created us to be people of passion. We long to have purpose, excitement, relationship, contentment and so much more. Unfortunately, the things we throw ourselves into never fulfill us on every level. So, we live our lives believing that if we could only attain that, then we would be content and satisfied.
During a recent conversation with my husband, I made a statement that even surprised me. We were discussing my desire to stay home with our children and I admitted to him that I had built that desire up in my mind until it had become the be all-end all of my life. It had become that one thing that I had convinced myself would determine whether or not I was content for the rest of my life. If it happens…life will be great. If it doesn’t…I will forever be unhappy and my poor children will be scarred for life. It had really become that much of an…dare I say…idol in my mind.
A prayer that I have been praying for a couple of months now…ever since I heard Beth Moore say it during a Bible study I was taking…is that I would no longer want what I have wanted in the past. That every desire of my heart would be to love Him more and more, to seek His face, and to long only for Him. Like Moses, I want the cry of my heart to be Lord, please show me Your glory. Nothing else will do. Any earthly desire pales in comparison.
I could not find a video or even an audio link for this song, but I just love it. It is by Mandisa who, because we worked together for a very brief time, I now call ‘disa. Okay, we never met, but did work for the same company for a while. Anyway…this song really speaks to what has been on my heart. It’s called Only You.
I’ve had days that felt like a thousand years
And years that just fly by
I’ve had times I’ve been so sure in life
And then nothing worked out right
I put my hope in so many things I thought that I would need
But it doesn’t mean anything, anything, anything to me
I’ve been around a crowd of people
And felt so all alone
Tried to give up being different
So that I could just belong
Some have tried to tell me who I’m supposed to be
But it doesn’t mean anything, anything to me
Only You, You satisfy
Only You are the love of my life
If I got everything I want, no, it still wouldn’t do
I got a whole lotta’ nothing if I don’t got You
When then mirror doesn’t match the cover of a magazine
And I’m consumed with all of my fears and insecurities
‘Cause I had my idol for a while, but now I finally I see
That it didn’t mean anything, anything, no
A whole lotta nothing
Oh Lord, I believe it’s a
Whole lotta nothing
If You ain’t close to me
The one thing I ask of the Lord—
the thing I seek most—
is to live in the house of the Lord all the days of my life,
delighting in the Lord’s perfections
and meditating in his Temple.